January 10, 2010

dear precious: day three.

Today (9/01/10) is day three of our time-off.

Yesterday, I promised Giraffe that I would pick her up from Zouk when she was done. I waited and I was genuinely worried, just like any loving boyfriend would in that situation. I kept looking at my Blackberry Curve every 10 minutes hoping she would call me soon. 

I hoped she was having fun. But deep down inside I was wishing she was thinking about her Hoshi.

When the call finally arrived, I felt so happy that I just wanted to flap my wings…errr…arms, I mean..and fly.

I practically flew to Zouk after she told me that I could pick her up. I bought her a bottle of Pokka Green Tea (yes that vile green liquid) before I did.

I was so happy when I laid my eyes on her that I could have grown wings (for real) and really fly…with her in my arms of course! Urm. I mean my wings; assuming I actually grew them because I wouldn’t be able to fly if I didn’t.

I hope Giraffe knew that when I said “I was expecting the worse”, I meant it well although it did not sound that way. I said that as a poor substitute to “I am so relieved you’re okay sayang!”. I hope Giraffe did not take it the wrong way. But I made a pact with her that if she ever decides that she wanted to visit a club or just have fun in any way, that she would make me part of it and bring me along so that I would not worry so much. And also because it makes more sense to have fun with her than sitting somewhere and worrying about her while twiddling my thumbs.

I sent Giraffe home after we sat and chatted at Kent Ridge Park.

Along the way, I actually forgot that it’s only natural that my Giraffe would like to enjoy her life in a different way. It is just sad that because of my awful behaviour towards her, she was afraid to let me know about it when she decided to do it.

Of course, the both of us (me especially; because the problem derived from me) have resolved this.

I hope Giraffe knows that I love her with all my heart. As much as I want Giraffe to have fun, be happy with her life and her relationship with me in particular, I hope she would do them in healthy way. Which pretty much means dragging me along! =P I  know that she will always think about me first before she does anything because she knows that I will too. And by that I mean saying goodbye to my awful, awful behaviour. And she knows that too =) Might sound a little complicated but I am sure Giraffe knows what her Hoshi is babbling about.

I know it’s almost 6 in the morning now and that my eyes can barely open but I’m pretty sure I got it right when I counted the number of times I said “know” in the previous paragraph and it came up to…urm…12,307 times.

And I probably need some sleep now too.

I can’t wait to meet Giraffe later. =)